in motion
A week of progress! A foreword motion I have entirely absorbed and adored. It was a week of exploration, advancements, experience; all coated in warm emotions and a positive embrace. It is hard to come across days like this, let alone full weeks, so it feels right to honor this time as valuable and worth documenting.
I feel as though the movement of time can be overwhelming to engage with when thought of as lost. Time is not lost, it simply is used; and this week inevitably was occupied fully. In addition to obligations, there was space to sprawl in and enjoy happening moments.
Valentine’s Day had the honor of opening up this week and oh boy! It sparked with a bang of inhospitable snow. Due to this dubious New England weather, it is hard to ever make plans this time of year; especially considering the pandemic. So, keeping this in mind, no arrangements were in place.
We immersed ourselves with The Lord of the Rings. Hiding my shame, I must admit I have never seen this series and so we deep dived head first into the intense three hour endeavor. It isn’t as strenuous as it appears, but definitely calls for a special kind of patience that we both willingly attempted to withhold.
Receiving gifts makes me feel weird, anyone else? Despite this, gifts were given and it is a reviving feeling on these kind of holidays. After an exchange of blueberry jam and a Godzilla card, we were content.
These winter storms are cryptic but also so loving. This comes as a perspective, and I have learned to embrace these frigid temperatures as a part of Earth’s natural course. (In February though??) I challenged myself to bring my camera with me throughout my days, which is something I haven’t done in years. There is this fluctuating anxiety that squirms between me and my relationship with photography; there is this pressure to capture only perfect shots and if this can’t be completed, I become very inward.
Time to combat this! Time to expand! I continue onward through this week and accept that this is a part of me I should embrace, always. I scale the field near my house and freeze my hands off for the sake of possibilities. It worked! And it happened in black and white! A style I personally don’t subscribe to but would love to venture in.
As discussed, February is a month that is confused. Unsure of itself, it could snow, or rain, or both, and it always is uncomfortable for everyone experiencing it’s confliction. But there is a positive outcome to this diversion: spring! A season I could melt into forever. Holding second place to autumn, I fall in love with its growth. It feels raw and full of new beginnings.
I picked up two bouquets and calculated a way to incorporate them in a self portrait I’ve been planning for some time. Flowers have always been a main character in my photos, and a huge highlight to my self portraits. So earthy! So welcoming! So loving!
Right before this arctic wave was a splash of dry and it is best to make the most out of it. We had an epiphany and got outside. How long can someone sit indoors between four walls?
Our last adventure leading up to now was a visitation to an abandoned place called Holy Land USA: it sits perched at the top of a mountain. The stem of this attraction is an average neighborhood, giving this place an even stronger eerie glow. It didn’t feel that scary but it definitely was an outrageously odd place to scout.
